I thought this year might be different. I thought that since this is big-big school I’d stop mucking about with my time and actually get on with something worthwhile; and look what I’m actually doing. Sitting on HB rattling on about doing productive stuff.

Having your own office makes you think “yes, finally somewhere I can do work, keep work and not be distracted from work…” In actual fact it seems like almost the opposite. It seems to be somewhere I can put work (to be done) and spend time procrastinating. This afternoon for example I had some lunch, bought some vinyl (on the desk), got some posters (classy, on the wall) and have spent the remainder of the time hunting out a kettle, lamp and small table (upon which to place said kettle) on the internet. Oh and the usual pishing away time on Facebook et al.

It seems like the only logical option is to open and prop back the door; then people could see in, if they really wanted to, and at this stage I probably don’t want to seem like I spend my time doing bugger all.

There’s something very odd about sitting at Bangor train station at 5:40am with David Bowie – Let’s Dance playing, Not sure what it is, but it is very peculiar. Try it, or don’t.

Answer: A lot of things, but some things more than others.

I openly admit to being a miserable old bastard. And in certain respects I’m proud of that. I don’t have outstanding morality based scruples, but I know what’s right and wrong. And for the most part I endeavour to stick to these individual beliefs, and uphold them. So it really irritates me when people don’t do the decent thing, in my opinion.

I generally tend to see the good in people, when I know them, if I don’t I am very cynical until proven otherwise. However, if I know people and frequently associate with them I generally believe them to be good people; else they would cease to be such acquaintances.

Last evening has dashed such thoughts. This evening I watched a friend of mine (X) cheat on another acquaintance of mine (Y), with a mutual friend (Z), purely to satisfy his own ego. Why was this? Why would one person feel the need to cheat on someone they were in a relationship with?

As a challenge to see if they are capable of it? To ascertain if they can get away with it? Purely because they want a change of ‘scenery’? (If so why not just end it with the other party?); or simply something as pathetic as greed?

Now granted, it takes two to tango. However, that said, the other party is in a pretty rough place. She was treated in a really crap manner by her past boyfriend and this has undoubtedly had a profound effect on her; her self-confidence is non-existent. Therefore X thought he could have a shot at Z. And it worked. Regardless of the fact that X and Y have been together for as long as I can remember, it must be 8 years now. And on top of this she has never deviated from the line with him and truly loves him to bits. Whereas he has more notches on his bedpost than a lot of people I know.

So when X achieved his aim, what went through his head? Was it success? Glee? Relief, perhaps? Or was it simply the viewpoint that “oh well, tomorrow I’ll be back with Y and Z can do one…”?

My point is this:

At what point does the ego become so great that it rules the mind and the body?

Answers on a postcard please. But no use of the word alcohol; if you’re still capable of performing bodily functions you still know what you’re doing. If you’re comatose then nothing is ever going to happen.

Ok so I am happily watching the news and I see that some one has equitted protestors of criminal damage after they climbed up a coal fired power station and started putting the words “Gordon Bin It” down the entire length.

Needless to say it meant that a police helicopter was promptly dispatched and put a stop to the people who were in essence trying to tarnish someone else’s property.

Their defence was that it was their aim to stop climate change which was a bigger threat! how on earth can that be right? if you want to change the climate turn your computer off and stop reading this now! (dont go out of your way to get helicopters called out to remote locations!) It really is that simple. Power stations are only supplying the demand fo electricity, therefore it is simple, switch your supply to “green” power or stop boiling your kettle and less emmisions will be a result!

Now why dont we go along to some BMW garage and start buring it down because all their drivers are maniacs? all they do is run you off the road and act like Kn*bs.

Why? because we are decent human beings. Now britain get some balls and start fining protestors who cause damage to property which is not theirs in the name of getting some publicity, surely the best publicity for the justice system would be to throw the book at them?

its been a funny old week, what with old friends getting married, spending too much time at the legion, and as time goes on me turning away from being the grumpy old man and whatnot.

The wedding, bizarely, was my 153rd, (yet only the 3rd where I have not been a part of the ceremony!!!) however I think it will remain in my memory for a very long time. I do very much like a church wedding (as a romantic chap at heart, some call it just plain old fashioned!) I really do believe that a church ceremony is the only place to get married as otherwise what is the point in spending 15 minutes in some (often) dark and dingy room with a couple of people. Marriage is for life and should be made with love and in front of God (it is a religious ceremony after all) and those whom we love.

The reason that this particular ceremony may remain in my mind for such a long time is partly due to the most beautiful decorations ever made and used at any venue I have seen before. The effort that went into ensuring that the wedding went off perfectly and beautifully was outstanding, but mainly the number of people who turned up to enjoy in the couples public show of love for one another. It was also a pleasure to be invited to the first of my school friends weddings.

It’s a bit scary that we are now old enough to be getting married whilst others are having kids, graduating and finding well paid proper carreers. However although it is obviously a huge monumentous occaision for the happy couple for me personally it defines the end of an era in our lives. I believe I spoke before about the changes that we have gone through in the last short few years. gone are the times of gentle ticking away and now sees the start of our real lives, all we must do now is pick up our feet and learn to run now that we can walk un-assisted.

ah the remeniscense of an old man eh!?

Its happened again!? How can this type of thing be allowed to happen twice in recent times?
I do hope we will receive some compenstation for the energy bill usage to boil all this water!?

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Good stuff.