Answer: A lot of things, but some things more than others.
I openly admit to being a miserable old bastard. And in certain respects I’m proud of that. I don’t have outstanding morality based scruples, but I know what’s right and wrong. And for the most part I endeavour to stick to these individual beliefs, and uphold them. So it really irritates me when people don’t do the decent thing, in my opinion.
I generally tend to see the good in people, when I know them, if I don’t I am very cynical until proven otherwise. However, if I know people and frequently associate with them I generally believe them to be good people; else they would cease to be such acquaintances.
Last evening has dashed such thoughts. This evening I watched a friend of mine (X) cheat on another acquaintance of mine (Y), with a mutual friend (Z), purely to satisfy his own ego. Why was this? Why would one person feel the need to cheat on someone they were in a relationship with?
As a challenge to see if they are capable of it? To ascertain if they can get away with it? Purely because they want a change of ‘scenery’? (If so why not just end it with the other party?); or simply something as pathetic as greed?
Now granted, it takes two to tango. However, that said, the other party is in a pretty rough place. She was treated in a really crap manner by her past boyfriend and this has undoubtedly had a profound effect on her; her self-confidence is non-existent. Therefore X thought he could have a shot at Z. And it worked. Regardless of the fact that X and Y have been together for as long as I can remember, it must be 8 years now. And on top of this she has never deviated from the line with him and truly loves him to bits. Whereas he has more notches on his bedpost than a lot of people I know.
So when X achieved his aim, what went through his head? Was it success? Glee? Relief, perhaps? Or was it simply the viewpoint that “oh well, tomorrow I’ll be back with Y and Z can do one…”?
My point is this:
At what point does the ego become so great that it rules the mind and the body?
Answers on a postcard please. But no use of the word alcohol; if you’re still capable of performing bodily functions you still know what you’re doing. If you’re comatose then nothing is ever going to happen.